I’ve been achy, with headaches, and a sore throat since Thursday. Today my ears started getting plugged — was having trouble keeping up with my mom’s conversations in the car. With the holiday parties and everything I haven’t been able to rest. This season has just been really different and I can’t seem to pinpoint why. There were less people at church and less people at the family parties. I didn’t mind at all that it was very intimate however. Christmas mass was definitely inspiring – especially since my faith has grown so much this season.
I admit that on Christmas Eve, Doris and I were being very “bah-humbug” to one another. The energy of the new year is really getting to us and the want of spending some time alone watching Christmas movies in your pajamas is just sounding really good at this point in time. I have one more week left to take the opportunity for some really good solitude and some really good revamping. I don’t need that much revamping, more like a redevelopment of my plans.
I’m beginning to feel the separation from my family, especially from my mom and my grandmother. Our topics of conversation are no longer about what color we should paint the house but about things like how much money do you need to make in order to survive in a new city, or how much money do you need to save every month to buy a new car? Should you rent an apartment? Should you buy a house? I have no choice now but to think of those things. So I’ve decided to spend New Year’s Eve with my family this time around. Mainly because I know I won’t be having too many of those anymore — they may not know it but I’m trying to make the best out of it.
I can honestly say that the best Christmas gift today was coming up with a better plan to make all of these things happen. Actually it was more like noticing a plan that was already there. I want to get rid of all the kinks this week. The new year is about to bring out what it’s been wanting to bring out — in all of us. Are you ready for it? If you’re not — you will definitely regret it. January is definitely going to be moving.