I’ve been faced with many decisions in the past few weeks, and faced with a few more in the days and weeks to come. Some decisions are easy to make, while others are the kind you don’t ever want to make.
Following a vision from scratch was the hardest decision I’ve ever had to make. Throwing away stability, the opinion of others, losing respect from loved ones, and sometimes giving up my own livelihood for others… all things that I have faced from that decision. Imagine having to tune it all out, to listen to the tiny voice from up above telling me what to do, what to say, and where to go.
The hard part is when you can’t hear that voice anymore. You start losing balance, you lose a sense of yourself and you have no idea what you’re supposed to do. So blindfolded you take one action after the other, hoping you got it right.
I share this over and over with my close friends —
Having faith is easy.
The challenge is maintaining it.
My spirit still lies with the community. Yet I haven’t been able to express that lately. So instead of the changes I make seeming like selfish changes, I hope it can be understood that I have the whole in mind. Such a utilitarian am I.
Feels like I’m kicking off my 2010 rather late. Who’s pace should we be on anyway? www.sacredspace.ie